What now?

Long time no write.

To sum it up:
I currently live in another city, where I am studying for a Master's degree in Culture & Media Production. I have realized that my passion lies mainly in the gaming medium, and the focus on my thesis will therefore be analyzing the way reality is represented/experienced through games, and creating some sort of game myself. I no longer live in a basement, but in a tiny student apartment, where I mostly sit by my computer experimenting with game engines, reading research articles, and mixing drinks. I have the occasional social life too, but mostly I play games or watch teen dramas.

The last year has been quite a ride. Like this:

Riding a bicycle by my lonesome, moments before sunrise.

Taking a leap of faith.

Crashing into a fountain and accidentally killing two pedestrians...

Ok, I'll admit, the last one never happened (other than in the virtual world of GTA V), but these images from my playthrough sum up the feelings of this past tumultuous year.

Strangely though, I feel more at peace than I've ever felt before. Mostly I think it's because I've finally begun to come to terms with my complicated personality, and am starting to actually like this complex and sometimes contradictory creature. By accepting that everything doesn't have to make sense, everything makes sense.

all diplomatic and shit.

!?!?!?!?

so i got the results for my bachelor's thesis.
i got the highest score.

?!?!?!?!

well, actually you can only get three kinds of scores: failing, passing, and passing well. whatever that means. "underkänd, godkänd och väl godkänd" in swedish. so i got the slightly higher "väl godkänd"... ain't that nice. and strange, as i personally think my thesis is just......something i did in order to get it done. well, apparently that's all that it takes sometimes. YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYY I'VE GRADUATED FROM UNIVERSITY/COLLEGE WHATEVER IT'S CALLED IN ENGLISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WWWOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now i'm looking forward to a year or two of taking it easy, maybe working a shitty job or two. the plan is to work at WHATEVER JOB I GET (read: anything except calling people trying to sell useless shit) and then gather a big enough amount of money to travel. the future seems quite blank at the moment. open, vast and unknown. i'm feeling terrified and free at the same time. which is actually exactly how i want to feel right now. how i need to feel right now, i think.

we'll see.

and soon i'm back in dear finland again. oh how homesick i've been.
see you soon friends (if anyone is even reading this as it's summer and you may not even use your computer) ! ! ! ? ! ! !