a night out - in solitude

so i was at home the whole last week because i had to finish the last assignments for the summer course i'm taking. and oh, how bored i was on friday, when the last assignment was done. i so longed to go out and just dance my head off for a bit, but alas, i had no one to go with. there was this concert i wanted to go to -hardstyle-high-tempo  - perfect for dancing. so i went alone. to be honest, yes, i was quite nervous to be going out on the town by myself. it's not like i've done it so often before. probably never. but it was a lovely evening. maybe exactly what i needed. and once in a while, it can be good to test your comfort zones a bit. and learn that maybe life isn't always as scary as you may have thought.

can't get this cider in sweden, so it's somehow a nostalgic thing for me
to drink it whenever i'm in finland.
doesn't matter that i nowadays think it tastes mostly like yeast
with only a faint hint of fruit.
makes me think of when i was 16, i guess.

i just sat there, at peace, enjoying the view

sitting on a bench, an older gentleman came and sat next to me. he had a bible-app
in his smartphone, and quoted different passages to me.
did you know that humans are nothing but a field of grass in the breeze?
and that the song "By the rivers of Babylon" by Boney M is based on a psalm?
he actually started singing it to me, and his singing voice wasn't that bad.

interior decor

by this point i was dancing so much i was sweating,
so didn't manage to take that many pics

somehow i really love these walks home at sunrise in the summertime

Zebra Katz

needed to make a post about this artist i've been listening to lately. (mainly because i wanted to post this lovely pic of him, and well, because i love his music). yo.

!?!?!?!?

so i got the results for my bachelor's thesis.
i got the highest score.

?!?!?!?!

well, actually you can only get three kinds of scores: failing, passing, and passing well. whatever that means. "underkänd, godkänd och väl godkänd" in swedish. so i got the slightly higher "väl godkänd"... ain't that nice. and strange, as i personally think my thesis is just......something i did in order to get it done. well, apparently that's all that it takes sometimes. YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYY I'VE GRADUATED FROM UNIVERSITY/COLLEGE WHATEVER IT'S CALLED IN ENGLISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WWWOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

now i'm looking forward to a year or two of taking it easy, maybe working a shitty job or two. the plan is to work at WHATEVER JOB I GET (read: anything except calling people trying to sell useless shit) and then gather a big enough amount of money to travel. the future seems quite blank at the moment. open, vast and unknown. i'm feeling terrified and free at the same time. which is actually exactly how i want to feel right now. how i need to feel right now, i think.

we'll see.

and soon i'm back in dear finland again. oh how homesick i've been.
see you soon friends (if anyone is even reading this as it's summer and you may not even use your computer) ! ! ! ? ! ! !

a poem about my life at the moment (and no it doesn't rhyme as i'm too lazy and tired to try to rhyme)

so much to be done
that can't be done yet
a stressed little monster in my chest
gnawing

trying to ignore it
and go about my life
but oh, what life?
i have no life anymore

the sun is shining
and it's warm outside
i don't go outside
anymore.

i know i should.

i want to graduate
and move on
i want a dishwasher
and a homewasher
i want to be able to run

i dreamt i couldn't walk anymore
because of my knee
so i had to ride on a large dog
somehow, it was my seeing eye dog
because losing my ability to walk naturally meant
i was blind as well
but still, somehow i must have been able to see
because we went to see a movie
in somebodys ultra-modern home.
and then the room (it was a kitchen)
flied away, down the street
and i realized that the people who lived there
were aliens.
but they were kind aliens.

i watch tv-shows in the morning
to try to forget that i don't have a life anymore
by watching other people's constructed lives
i can play along
i'm waiting for the summer to begin
waiting
without actually having the time to wait
and still somehow i find the time
to watch tv-shows

cosmopolitans & chipmunks

surprise  surprise... i'm hung over. i think i'm measuring the amount of alcohol wrong somehow when mixing drinks. also, cosmopolitans are quite strong. when i mix them, at least.

BUT i was so happy from receiving quite good feedback on the first part of my thesis from my instructor, so  i had a good reason to celebrate! then again, i sure would like to learn doing so without getting so hung over. haven't been drunk for some weeks so i guess i kind of forgot. oh well.

now i have some other incredibly pointless news: did you know there's a CHIPMUNK DISGUISE in hitman absolution? i didn't. was playing it and walked into a shed. there was a disguise on the table, so i thought "well, that's handy, this way i can pass unnoticed among the guards" but, guess what: the guards do get suspicious if a man in a chupmunk suit is sneaking around. so it really wasn't that handy. but at least it gave me a laugh.

now i'll go play some more hitman absolution and see what other disguises i can find.

drinking games

i'm drunk. everynody's drunk. everybody's losing. this'll be an interesting evening.

best of

last night, i looked through all the things i've reblogged on tumblr.
i do this every once in a while, i find it calming to look through my collection of inspiring pictures.
and there are always certain pictures that bring a smile to my face. for different reasons.
so, i decided to post a small best of collection, containing some of my favorites. ta-dah.